the eugene bean

Not really the whole world, but some things have recently ticked me off and since this is my blog (mine) I’m going to expound upon them.

First off, I feel very strongly about my beliefs (Sound familiar? I bet you all say that very same damn thing) and this is a safe place for me to talk about them. If you don’t like what I say you have a few options:
1. Talk to me about it. I welcome debate and sharing. I love a good, heated, respectful discussion that consists of mature grown up people sharing their beliefs. Mom of Jonathan for example: very polite in her comments. She clearly thinks I’m nuts but she was at least respectful about it.
2. Keep quiet and pretend that I believe the same things as you do. This works really well for the people who don’t care for confrontation. I won’t force you to talk about religion, I promise.
3. Lastly, if you are intent on being belligerent and ugly, fuck off. How you think it’s possible to convert people through disrespect I’ll never know. Keep your nasty opinions to yourself or I will ERASE YOU FROM MY BLOG. I have that power, you know. I HAVE THE POWER TO ERASE YOU.

On another tirade, I’m in the angry phase of working with abused children. Supposedly this is normal but I’m having a hard time with it. Each time I read a new case file, I get raging, can’t see straight mad. I want to claw the eyes out of these kid’s parents. I want to beat them with bats. I want to invent new forms of torture. (Told you I was angry.) The therapists at work say this is normal and that I’ll get over it. That in order to really help the kids I need to let go of the wrath. The kids can’t carry it around with them, neither can I. It’s so weird to work at a place that can move you from anger to tears in an instant. I am totally and completely falling in love with my students.

So my next anger issue deals with gay people. I’m so angry about the issues surrounding gay rights. How is it possible that I live in a world that ostracizes people because of their sexual preference? How is it possible that we AS A WHOLE SOCIETY have decided to snub gays and their behaviors? I know many gay people and they are just like me! Brad is my best friend, we are VERY alike, and we share many of the same principles and beliefs.

I think gay people should be able to get married, I think they should be able to be parents, I think they should be able to share health care. I think Brad should have every right that Ty and I have. It’s upsetting to me to know that my opinion doesn’t mean shit. I am surrounded by narrow minded fools (I call you fools because I think you are fools. My willingness to accept other beliefs apparently doesn’t extend to this issue) and these fools somehow have power over the rest of us. I know that this period will end and that gay people will receive equal rights just like women and black people did. I just don’t want to wait and watch people suffer.

One thing I promise is that my kids will know that gay people are normal. It’s not weird, it’s not something they will grow out of, it’s not something they can feel but not act on (can you believe those arguments???) It’s a normal, ole way of life. J doesn’t care if his friends are girls or boys, he doesn’t care if his friends are white, black, or just a little more tan, and he knows that men can be in love with other men just like they can be in love with women. I truly hope this childish acceptance will continue in his heart. J is lucky enough to have gay adults in his life to be positive role models. He loves and respects strong, sweet, and loving gay men. Their relationship is needed to help erase injustice. So, Brad, keep it up.

Although there are many other things that make me angry, I'll be done for now. I need to go refocus my negative energy so I can have a positive day. Sound familiar Mom?